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Holy fuck I’m tired. Disneyland and California Adventure for 13 hours. To sum it all up; first day of summer was great. Grad night was fun but so fucking exhausting.
5 am. Time to sleep for 12 hours.
And so the messed up sleeping schedule begins.

How did I end up in this situation again? I told myself never again. But I guess I’m not very good at lying to myself. 

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Was it a mistake? Yes. Do I regret it? No. But shit it was crazy.

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Maybe it’s a good thing we’re no longer connected through social network. Gives both of us less of a reason to contact each other.

I was reading our old messages today. I miss you so much. So much that it hurts.
Why do I do this to myself?

I know we don’t talk anymore, but just remember that I always wish you the best. Don’t ever forget that. Just because we don’t communicate as well as before, I still care. Probably more than I should.

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Note to self:

Don’t ever let anyone’s opinion bring you down. If you’re subject to degradation, don’t let them feel the satisfaction of tearing you apart.

That breathtaking moment when you and that special someone are about to kiss. Your faces are just so close, but you both hold back for a little bit. Fuck I miss that.

"Just look back on the most terrible lowest time of your life. And look at yourself now. Whatever you’re going through now, tell yourself that it’s nothing compared to what you’ve already survived and that you will get through it."

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"If you look hard enough you can always see reasons, but you’ll go crazy if you think it’s all punishment for your sins. God doesn’t need to punish us. He just grants us a long enough life to punish ourselves."

Just because I seem okay on the outside does not mean my mind isn’t going insane.

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No one takes me seriously when I tell them I’m not happy. Just goes to show how good I am at putting on masks.

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Exploring my options.

College decisions are so extremely difficult. 😣

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jmonayy:

We argue like an old married couple. Love each other like sister and brother. Make fun of each other like best friends. Talk to each other like boyfriend and girlfriend. But what are we? Nothing. And it will always be just nothing between us.

You want to know why I don’t like talking to you? Well first of all, you are a fucking bitch. You are so rude, inconsiderate, and selfish. Second, you don’t ask, you demand. I’m not your damn slave. Shut the fuck up. Get your ass up and do something yourself. Third, you whine like a fucking toddler. Stop complaining about your life and do something to fix it. Sitting around not doing shit won’t help you progress in any way at all. So don’t come whining to anyone when you’re suffering from your own laziness. Fourth, you are so unsupportive of my aspirations. I’ve worked and I’m still working too hard to be degraded by you and to hear any complaints or insults regarding my goals. Fifth, you are extremely egotistic. Step off your high horse because I hate to break it to you, but you are not always right. If you’re wrong, just accept it and apologize. If you’re flawed, accept it and do something about yourself. If you were fooled, accept it and laugh about it.  Try to see from my perspective before you yell at me or lecture me for nothing. That’s all I’m asking. 

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